It’s most strange but I’m feeling more thoughtful today. Looking back is a strange experience sometimes. You see a snapshot of yourself. That was the “me” who wrote that way back when — even though it’s only a few weeks, it’s sometimes hard to recognize yourself.

That friend-of-a-friend who suggested I was a bad role model made me think about myself. Perhaps she’s right. Perhaps I’m not the right kind of person to write about weight loss. Yes, I’m going through it right now, so I can talk from my own experience. But everyone is different. Their bodies work in different ways, and what might work for me isn’t going to work for someone else.

Perhaps I should have the site write a warning notice. . .

Or is this the washout period affecting my mood — I’m going through the two week period between Phentermine and Acomplia. Letting the phentermine get completely out of my system before I start on the Acomplia.

I always feel I have to try harder during this two week period. Yes, I’ve got the diet habits down pat and still exercise by walking every day. But when I stop taking the pills, there’s a little knock of fear on the door of my mind — is the weight going to come sneaking back while I’m not looking?

Natural paranoia?

Is paranoia ever natural?

I don’t want to sound like I’m dependent on the pills. It’s not that serious. I just seem to be lacking in a little confidence today.

I’m not sure whether I’d feel like this if I was still taking the Phentermine. Ah, well, I suppose that’s where the trap is. You ask yourself whether you’d feel better and, before you know it, you’re looking at the pills as the only way of staying positive about anything. Roll on the Acomplia. I never miss Phentermine at all during that six weeks in the cycle.

So, that’s the dangerous admission, isn’t it. I’m missing the Phentermine today. I know it, really. You should too. We all have to be careful. These pills are addicting, and we have to wean ourselves on and off again so the temptation never gets too strong.

I suppose it’s easier for me at my time of life. Ha ha! Listen to me. My grey hairs have suddenly given me wisdom. Just think of all those mistakes. . .

Staying confident is more than half the battle in any weight loss program. No matter how hard it gets, through the good days and the bad, you have to keep your goal of losing weight in mind. You’ve promised yourself you’re going to keep on losing those pounds. Now’s not the time to turn into one of those people you so dislike. You know the ones. The faint-hearted who vaguely say one thing one day and then do the opposite the next. They’re so annoying.

So, am I reaching some kind of great life lesson here or just rambling on in a not quite depressed way?

Well, I take Phentermine and Acomplia back-to-back. Whether that’s sensible or not, that’s what I do for me and I’ve found it works. Two sets of medications in an endless cycle. Just like stepping stones through life. Be realistic! They’re not a bridge you walk over once to get where you’re going. Life flows by you all the time. You’re the one who has to manage all that other stuff. Keep eating smaller portions, only buying the healthy food and exercising every day. The medications help you more than they hinder you as you realise your goals — the realistic goals, of course.

Confidence! That’s what we all need!

Weight loss follows slowly behind so long as we keep pressing on with the program we’ve found works for us. Remember, there’s a thin person inside yourself trusting you to make room for her to come out.

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